8 MONTHS!!!!

8 Months already .....where is the time going to....cant believe my babies is growing to fast and becoming this little people with there own personalities.

Everyday with them is this awesome adventure....to see them learn and smiling and just being this happy tiny persons...here are there updates on everything.

ALISSA....

This little wonder girls is on the fast track...last week the 16 September 2013 she gave us a smile with two pearly white teeth sprouting from the baby gums i so love. Her hair is also growing very long now and she is the typical blond blue eye fair skin girl...she is going to be a stunner i just know it. She is a little lazy to sit on her own but eager to share her smiles with everyone.

LUCIAN....

He is such a wild child this one....he loves screaming and smiling but is so shy when it comes to people...he just want my arms and cries if anybody is looking at him. He still does not have any teeth but he is sitting on his own now and that is amazing coz now he is a very happy baby. He is this real little punk rocker with Mohawk hair and personality.

Overall...

I love being a mommy and love seeing them lean and discover the wold....now we are only waiting for the fun to start when they start crawling and walking.

Thank you God for this awesome blessing in our lives.

Love to all 

6 MONTHS UPDATE!!!!

Lucian and Alissa is 6 months old (corrected age is 4.5 Months)

Took them for there checkup and all is good.....

Lucian is 9kg and Alissa is 6.5kg....and Doc said both is doing very well and that they are not behind with there development at all.

Lucian and Alissa is trying to sit up by them self's now and its to cute for words...they have the cutest personalities...both is very attached to me and want me to pick them up the whole time.

We have started solids and its such a fun mess...Alissa loves eating like all woman do lol...Lucian is only starting to enjoy it now....Alissa is also in the clear for the Shunt ....doc is very happy with her and said we will only do a CT scan when she is 5 years old if there is no other problems...so far Thank God there is no evidence of any brain damage.

These two are my life...

Thank you God for blessing me with them.

Just Had to Share!!!!!!!!

My Princess

Grandmother Passed Away!!!

27 July my Dearest Grandmother left is to be with her loved ones in heaven...my Heart is so broken but i know that she is happy and pain free.

My grandmother was one of those people that saw the good in everything.... while we struggled to fall pregnant she was the one that kept me positive and hoping and was always there to listen to me moan and utter out all my suppressed feelings.

I will forever miss her and keep all the fond memories with her deep in my heart...

Hannetjie Cecilia Rigsby
27 July 2013
RIP
Lief you Ouma

TIME FOR TWO COTS!!!!!!!!!!!

Its with a sad conclusion that i realized that its time for the twins to be separated....Lucian is getting to big to share the cot with Alissa. Its so heartbreaking. So i will put to cots next to each other and see how it all works out. Cant i keep them small for n little while longer. Lucian is attempting to sit up by himself. Both are trying to crawl...my babies is getting big now.

And on n sad note....My Rock My Grandma is very ill...she had a stroke last week and is not doing to well...she is not getting any blood flow to the brain and is having fits. My heart is so broken....i cant imagine not to stop there and drink coffee and just chit chat to her...she is the only one that knew how painful Infertility is...she struggled 11 years to conceive.

God...if its your will to take her...let it be...let there be peace in her heart and let her know that we are all in awe of the amazing woman, wife , friend, mother, grandmother, great grandmother. We all Love her so much and only wish the best for her.....God take away her pain and let her be with our Granddad and her son and daughter up in heaven. God we plead that God please keep a hand of protection of love and guidance over her. Amen

If i can be half a woman like my grandmother then i will be content with my life. My life will be empty without her .

5 MONTHS OLD!!!

5 Months old.....where is the time going too......everyday there is something new that Lucian and Alissa is doing.

ALISSA

She is such a happy baby...always smiling and making these cute faces..i just adore her. On her last checkup she weighed 5.7 kg and i a tall baby with the biggest blue eyes and blond hair..she is going to be a real beauty. She is at that stage that she recognize me when i am in a bunch of people. She would look at all the people and when she sees me she would look again just to make sure and then give me the biggest smile ever. I'm so happy that my girl is growing and showing no signs that the shunt is bothering her. I just love her so much. She is also learning to stand and want to stand on her little legs the whole time...and she is very intelligent. She likes to look at her tine hands and compare them to each other and she loves to look at the tv. She is also n real talker and love to lay next to me and talk. And i better respond to her talking or she would get upset.

She does not like to lay down she like to sit up and she hates medication.

LUCIAN

He is my problem child...not that i complain...i have all my days with him...he is at that stage that he does not want anybody else but his mommy...nobody is aloud to touch him or hold him...he does not even want people to look at him......and if they do all hell is loose with him crying an tears and all the works. When i console him my heart just breaks to see the tears running down the little face and than just a couple of seconds when he sees that i'm holding him then he changes into a happy baby again with the cutest shy smile of him. He is my big boy...weighing in almost at 9 kg. He loves his milk and night feeds. He will wake up 2-3 times a night looking for his milk...i don't mind waking up to him because he is smiling when he sees me and that melts my heart. I Love him so much....everyday he amazes me with his development. He loves to bath and to kick his legs and to talk and laugh.

He does not like other people and being ignored.

What can I say...I just love being a mommy and so wish all my infertile friends can experience that same love. I know now that the wait was worth it in the end. These two kids have changed my life completely for the best. My heart is divided in to two pieced beating in there tiny bodies. Every smile is worth all the pain in the end....how did i survive without them all these year is still n mysteries. I know now my family is my all my everything...i breath to love them to death. And God knows what we need when in our lives...I am eternally Grateful for this double blessing of our kids.

Lucian....Alissa...Mommy and Daddy loves you with everything in us and would do anything to love and protect and take care of you....you are our lives.

All glory to God.

Just a few Pictures of the loves of my life!!!

Lucian 

Alissa & Lucian

Alissa happy

Alissa

Lucian

Ventricular Shunt!!!!!

Before if you asked me if i knew what a Ventricular Shunt is i would have looked at you funny and said NO!!!

At 2 weeks old my little girl was crying allot....i thought to my self she must be a colic baby coz she don't want to stop crying. But believe me there is such a thing as mommy instincts.

I just knew there was something else wrong. Took her to 3 doctors until we had our answers.

Alissa has a level 4 Bleeding in the brain...i will never forget the fear of loosing my little girl. I was sitting on the hospital bed holding her while she had a fit and the doctor came in and said he had some bad news for us. My hole wold just stood still. I was in shock...then fear took over...i cant loose Alissa not like this not now.

Fast forward to a couple of hours later...Alissa was booked into NICU and was hooked up on all these monitors. She was going to need brain surgery to correct the bleeding in her brain.

Alissa was ill and i could see it in the way she looked at me...i have never felt so helpless in my life...i could do nothing to help my little girl to rid her of the pain that she is feeling. She was on such strong medication that she was sleeping day in and day out. After 3 weeks in the NICU the Brain surgeon decided it was time for her operation....the operation went so fast and she was in no time back in the NICU...the operation was a success. I don't want to go into all the finer details of the NICU stay. Its still to raw for me. I must say...she was in the best of care there and i would be forever grateful to the NICU staff and Dr Tatomir for the care and love that they gave her. And to God for keeping his hand of protection over her and giving us the strength to be there for her.

Alissa was another week in the NICU before they released her and she is n happy growing healthy baby at home.

And we adore her and her brother to the fullest. I cant explain the love i have for these two. They are my everything and more.

Birth Story!!!

So after n hectic four months i am back at work and can write my birth story at last.

SO MUCH HAS CHANGED...

My Birth story....

I had my C section booked for the 11 of March but at my 34 week appointment our gyne told me to get my bags ready because this pregnancy is done...my blood pressure was high and i was in pre term labour...and so off we went to the hospital and organizing the bed earlier as  we planed too.

That night i did not sleep a wink...i was so excited and scared... and are finaly going to meet my babies after all the years of struggling i am going to be a mommy

I booked in at the hospital at 6am and my theater time was at 8am but the doctor changed his mind because he was scared that the babies was in distress and rushed me in just before 7am. I had my spinal block and must admit it was a breeze...it was not sore at all...at 7am Alissa was born 2.4kg and one minute later Lucian was born n tiny 2.1kg. Both babies perfect screaming. I was so emotional to at last holding my babies...it was from the instant clear to me that these too is my life and i would die for them any day. I was weeled back to the recovery room and my babies was brought to us for the family to meet them. They where so tiny and beautiful. Both had these intense blue eyes and Lucian had this tanned skin and dark hair and Alissa was the fair skin blond hear beauty. That night at 3am the nurses woke me up and brought the twins to my room for there first feed and for my to start being the real mommy.

Breastfeeding was so special to bond with them was the most amazing experience in the world. That night i did not sleep at all i was so worried that i would not hear them cry or that something would happen to them.

Meeting my babies was the most special experience i have ever had and would treasure it for ever. The instant love is amazing the bonding the responsibility of these tiny humans are all we ever needed to be complete.

I love Being a mommy and i love Lucian and Alissa with everything in me.

 Thank you God for these two blessing in our lifes.

27 WEEKS ALREADY!!!

Im 27 weeks already can you believe it...these two are real busy bodies...kicking and pushing. Now that the time is going so fast and i am nearing the end of my pregnancy there is this sadness that creeps up on me too know that i will never experience this again. I love my babas kicking inside of me.

Symptom wise - i have carpal tunnel syndrome...my hand go completely numb...i asked our gyne and he said it is normal with twins and it will go away after the delivery. My belly is huge and the discomfort  is setting in.

But otherwise i love being pregnant and cant wait for these twins arrival. Gonna be a mommy at last.

God is truly amazing in his timing.

Never give up hope.

Much Love

GOING ON 32 WEEKS!!!

Time has gone very fast and i cant believe that i am so far already...in a month and a bit the twins will be here. Today is my last day at word and i am so happy...i can feel the weight pulling me down now...the carpal tunnel is hectic my hands go numb and pain at night...i wake up at least 5-6 times to go to the loo.

Other wise all is good in the pregnancy...at our 29 week scan the twins was so active ...Lucian weighing in at 1.3kg and Alissa at 1.2kg both looking good. BP is good and no other problems except the weight i am picking up a whooping 24kg.

The baby room is basically done just here and there a touch-up. Hospital is booked now we just wait for the big day. Doc will probably tell us the date next week.

Thank you God for blessing us with this healthy twins and a healthy pregnancy. 

Love to all