Tuesday, 11 June 2013

Ventricular Shunt!!!!!

Before if you asked me if i knew what a Ventricular Shunt is i would have looked at you funny and said NO!!!

At 2 weeks old my little girl was crying allot....i thought to my self she must be a colic baby coz she don't want to stop crying. But believe me there is such a thing as mommy instincts.

I just knew there was something else wrong. Took her to 3 doctors until we had our answers.

Alissa has a level 4 Bleeding in the brain...i will never forget the fear of loosing my little girl. I was sitting on the hospital bed holding her while she had a fit and the doctor came in and said he had some bad news for us. My hole wold just stood still. I was in shock...then fear took over...i cant loose Alissa not like this not now.

Fast forward to a couple of hours later...Alissa was booked into NICU and was hooked up on all these monitors. She was going to need brain surgery to correct the bleeding in her brain.

Alissa was ill and i could see it in the way she looked at me...i have never felt so helpless in my life...i could do nothing to help my little girl to rid her of the pain that she is feeling. She was on such strong medication that she was sleeping day in and day out. After 3 weeks in the NICU the Brain surgeon decided it was time for her operation....the operation went so fast and she was in no time back in the NICU...the operation was a success. I don't want to go into all the finer details of the NICU stay. Its still to raw for me. I must say...she was in the best of care there and i would be forever grateful to the NICU staff and Dr Tatomir for the care and love that they gave her. And to God for keeping his hand of protection over her and giving us the strength to be there for her.

Alissa was another week in the NICU before they released her and she is n happy growing healthy baby at home.

And we adore her and her brother to the fullest. I cant explain the love i have for these two. They are my everything and more.


Birth Story!!!

So after n hectic four months i am back at work and can write my birth story at last.

SO MUCH HAS CHANGED...

My Birth story....

I had my C section booked for the 11 of March but at my 34 week appointment our gyne told me to get my bags ready because this pregnancy is done...my blood pressure was high and i was in pre term labour...and so off we went to the hospital and organizing the bed earlier as  we planed too.

That night i did not sleep a wink...i was so excited and scared... and are finaly going to meet my babies after all the years of struggling i am going to be a mommy

I booked in at the hospital at 6am and my theater time was at 8am but the doctor changed his mind because he was scared that the babies was in distress and rushed me in just before 7am. I had my spinal block and must admit it was a breeze...it was not sore at all...at 7am Alissa was born 2.4kg and one minute later Lucian was born n tiny 2.1kg. Both babies perfect screaming. I was so emotional to at last holding my babies...it was from the instant clear to me that these too is my life and i would die for them any day. I was weeled back to the recovery room and my babies was brought to us for the family to meet them. They where so tiny and beautiful. Both had these intense blue eyes and Lucian had this tanned skin and dark hair and Alissa was the fair skin blond hear beauty. That night at 3am the nurses woke me up and brought the twins to my room for there first feed and for my to start being the real mommy.

Breastfeeding was so special to bond with them was the most amazing experience in the world. That night i did not sleep at all i was so worried that i would not hear them cry or that something would happen to them.

Meeting my babies was the most special experience i have ever had and would treasure it for ever. The instant love is amazing the bonding the responsibility of these tiny humans are all we ever needed to be complete.

I love Being a mommy and i love Lucian and Alissa with everything in me.
 Thank you God for these two blessing in our lifes.

Wednesday, 9 January 2013

27 WEEKS ALREADY!!!

Im 27 weeks already can you believe it...these two are real busy bodies...kicking and pushing. Now that the time is going so fast and i am nearing the end of my pregnancy there is this sadness that creeps up on me too know that i will never experience this again. I love my babas kicking inside of me.

Symptom wise - i have carpal tunnel syndrome...my hand go completely numb...i asked our gyne and he said it is normal with twins and it will go away after the delivery. My belly is huge and the discomfort  is setting in.

But otherwise i love being pregnant and cant wait for these twins arrival. Gonna be a mommy at last.

God is truly amazing in his timing.

Never give up hope.

Much Love

GOING ON 32 WEEKS!!!

Time has gone very fast and i cant believe that i am so far already...in a month and a bit the twins will be here. Today is my last day at word and i am so happy...i can feel the weight pulling me down now...the carpal tunnel is hectic my hands go numb and pain at night...i wake up at least 5-6 times to go to the loo.

Other wise all is good in the pregnancy...at our 29 week scan the twins was so active ...Lucian weighing in at 1.3kg and Alissa at 1.2kg both looking good. BP is good and no other problems except the weight i am picking up a whooping 24kg.

The baby room is basically done just here and there a touch-up. Hospital is booked now we just wait for the big day. Doc will probably tell us the date next week.

Thank you God for blessing us with this healthy twins and a healthy pregnancy. 

Love to all


Tuesday, 13 November 2012

23 WEEKS UPDATE!!!!


What a wonderful feeling to know both babies is kicking. Baby b is not kicking so much as Baby A but at least he or she is getting there one or two kicks in. Today it dawned on me that in tree months our babies will be here and my pregnancy will be over.....i might not ever get pregnant again...this is it...i have waited so many years for this moment and now its going so fast.

Its a bitter/sweet situation...

Bitter for the fact that the pregnancy/feeling our babies kick / knowing that we have these two babies inside of me is ending soon and i might not ever experience it again where fertile people can just go and get pregnant when ever they like. You see i said its the bitter side of me....

Sweet because i will be a mommy and i will have my babies in my arms very soon and have the new joys of parenthood...feeling complete and just in love with the two that we have fought so long and hard to have in our lives. We are going to be a mommy and daddy and we so cant wait.


I think with men its different then with us ladies...we feel the bump growing we feel the movement and we make the mental connection to our children ..for them is they see the bump growing and feel the movement but not like us and still feel like they missing out on something....think that's why Christo needs to hold these babies so bad that it will make it real to him that he is a daddy now.



We moved into our own home this weekend and it garden is to die for...i can image n the twins playing in the trees and on the grass just the little perfect home for our little family of four plus our three doggies as well lol.


Now the fun starts with the baby room i got a woman that is making dinosaurs out of wood for the twins room...here is the preview so far.

God bless all my infertility sisters....may they all receive this blessing soon.

Love Cecilia

Friday, 2 November 2012

22 WEEKS UPDATE!!!!

Time is going by so fast.....Lucian and Alissa is doing very good...gyne is so happy with there growth and how the pregnancy is progressing. He says we going to try and push for 36 weeks with is just 14 weeks away...cant believe it ...in 14 weeks our twins might be here..i'm so happy and nervous and scared and excited all at the same time.

I don't have morning sickness anymore and i must say in overall i feel great...the twins is kicking up a storm and i just love the feeling of them moving inside me.

In total since starting our whole IVF process i have picked up 16kg....that is not the nice part of the pregnancy to find anything that fits is like mission in possible...i dress and re dress and then re dress with the hope of finding something that i feel comfortable in.

In overall i just cant wait to start the baby room....moving next week into our own little house....then starting the baby room.

So blessed to have these two angels in our life.

Thank you God.

Monday, 22 October 2012

20 WEEK FETAL ASSESSMENT SCAN!!!

Halfway!!!!


Seems still so unreal to think we are half way. Both Lucian and Alissa is growing on track and are two cute for words....i'm so excited for them to come...Lucian was sucking on his hand the whole time and turning his back on the sonar......seems like a real little shy guy and Alissa was the busy bee this time.

The scan was a whole 45min long scan and doc checked everything from top to toe....Hubby was in such a awe of these two he could not get enough and the smile on his face is priceless.

And the good news is that i'm starting to feel movement. Its like a little tug here and there and in the beginning i was not sure but its happening more and more everyday. I'm so excited ...cant wait for hubby to feel it too.

We moving into our new home soon and then we can start on the babies room...i cant wait everything is falling so nicely into place....

Thank you God if it was not for you and your constant blessings i don't know where we would have been now.

Love

Wednesday, 10 October 2012

Going on 19 weeks!!!!

Almost half way into the pregnancy and it still feels like a dream.  I have my on and off days i must admit...i'm no super woman.

I still have my occasional morning sickness....but i can cope with it.
Came down with the flu but its also seems to be passing, i'm getting rounder by the day...finding something to wear to work seems to becoming a problem but otherwise all seem to be going dandy.

Its in the up and coming weeks that i will start to feel the twins move the first time and i must admit i'm so eager...everyday is like i'm waiting for a suprize. Next week we going for our next Fetal assessment and i'm so excited. Feels like ages that i have not seen the twins.

Ia am  trying to buy a home of our own so i cant wait to move and start on the twins room.

Lots of excitement ahead...i love my belly d and i love these twins with all my heart.

Thank you God for keeping them save and sound in my belly where they belong till they are ready and healthy to be born.

Pic of my tummy at 19 weeks!!!!

Love

Monday, 24 September 2012

15 WEEKS AND 5 DAYS SCAN


What an amazing scan it was………………we found out the genders of our babies and are so excited to announce that we are having a little boy and little girl.

Baby Boy is 12.9cm and heart beat per minute is 170.

Baby Girl is 12.7cm and heart beat per minute is 170.

Both is growing on track and is kicking and moving like crazy, was so emotional to find out the genders and now it feels so real now.

We are truly so blessed to have these to baby’s.

We also decided on there names:

Lucian meaning light.

Alissa meaning  noble.

Now its its deciding the baby room…….what fun to have baby boy and girl.

Our family is very excited and they have brought gifts of the cutest outfits for the twins.

Next scan is on the 19 Ocotber  and will be a fetal assesment scan.

Today im n full 4 months pregnant and I feel huge already…..morning sickness seems to have ease up and I feel not so tired anymore, we are so blessed to be so far already…..cant wait to hold our babies in our arms.
Thank you Lord.

Monday, 10 September 2012

DID A SNEAKY SCAN ON FRIDAY TO SHOW MY HUSBAND OUR TWINS FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!

Yes i caved and made an appointment with our local house doctor to do a scan so that my husband can see the twins as well.

What a special moment...i did not look at the screen a lot as i was mesmerized by the expression on his face as he was smiling and glowing as he was looking at our babies moving all over the scan.

. I think it seems more real to him now that he has seen them so active and busy on the screen.

Babies are doing great...growing very fast and moving around like crazy....one baby seems to be the one that likes all the screen time popping in the picture as soon as we are trying to measure the other baby. I have a feeling they are going to be as busy as there daddy.

I'm so in love with my family...it took us long to get here but here we are almost four months pregnant with our darling babies.

Hope that every couple that is struggling will soon experience the amazing feeling of being a mommy.

God Bless
Love to all

Tuesday, 4 September 2012

12 WEEKS AND FETAL ASSESSMENT!!!!!

What can i say except that we are extremely blessed to have healthy growing busy babies.

Went in for the fetal assessment and i must admit i was terrified....the lady doing the scans was so nice....and i have to say i am so happy to say that we have upgraded from a downstairs sonar to a tummy sonar...as usually my brother was the one that joined my appointment. He is my rock.

As i was laying there the lady kept saying LAY STILL...a couple of times and i was thinking geeeeeez woman i am not even moving...I think she saw the puzzled look on my face and  said "no not you the babies"...they where moving around so much she could not scan them. My heart just melted...they are the two most perfect little babies i have ever seen.

Baby A is a full 6.5cm with a perfect HBP of 168. and he\she is a real busy body kicking and waving the arms like she\he is saying hello Mommy can you see me.

Baby B is a full 6.4cm with a perfect HBP of 162. as you can see from my previous posts that he\she is catching up nicely in nice with the sibling. He\she was the calm baby laying there and just sucking thumb.

My baby brother was in total awe because he has never seen a sonar...it was so emotional and amazing.

Thou our infertility struggle was long and challenging i must admit....God's timing was perfect.

I am 13 weeks and 1 day today and have gained 6kg since we started our ICSI...the tummy is showing nicely and people are saying i am glowing.

I love the tummy .

We are in the process of buying our own home so all is going good.

Symptom wise....just now and then some morning sickness and that is all.

I hope all my infertility sisters receive this special gift very soon.

Love to all....

Friday, 17 August 2012

10 weeks 3 days

Had our second scan yesterday and i am so in love with our twins.

Gyne is very happy with both of babies progress...

Baby A is now 4.1cm
Baby B is now 3.8cm

Saw there little hearts beating and they where moving around.

So relieved that they are growing and doing so well.

When i left the Doc's office i was crying all the way home with tears of happiness.

My Delivery date is 11 March 2013

And we trying to buy house now so all is going good so far.

Now we can plan our baby room.

My lovely Aunt and Uncle from Lydenburg suprized us with buying a most of our baby thing for the baby room... basically everything we need.

Better Aunt and Uncle u wont get.

Thanx Aunt Leoni and Oom Willie

You are the best.

Love you lots.

Friday, 27 July 2012

Double Blessed!!!

Monday i will be 8 weeks and its still so unreal....the morning sickness has kicked in with full force and its a love hate relationship....love being having it because its a constant reminder that there is these to amazing lives growing inside of me and a hate for feeling nausea the whole time. But bring it on baby i'm gonna be a mother.

The the second symptom is the constant tiredness....i just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. I could never sleep in the middle of the day..now i'm sitting at work and planning if i get of at 12 i'm gonna go take a power nap.

The rest i feel normal....what i do love right now is the happiness  i see in my husband..the pure joy of knowing he is going to be a dad of his own biological children...he cant stop talking about when they there what he is going to teach them .....Life is good seeing him so happy.

My next sonar is on the 8 of August just cant wait.

Thank you Lord for giving us this wonderful little lives that we will treasure and look after. We ask you to keep your hand over them and pray for a full term pregnancy with healthy babies.

Amen.

Friday, 20 July 2012

WE EXPECTING...........TWINS!!!!!

We are so totaly in awe of God of blessing us with not one but two little lives.

What an emotional and scary day......i was laying there waiting for my scan and all these thoughts go through  my mind.....but all was okay and we having two healthy babies on board.

Baby a is 7.2mm with a heartbeat 130 bpm
Baby b is 5.4mm with a heartbeat 125 bpm

They where amazing hearing the beating hearts seeing the flikkering on the screen...my heart just melted.

Im so inlove with them already.....

Today i started feeling like a mommy.

Blessed by God twice.


Here is some pics of our little beans.

Thursday, 12 July 2012

One week left to our fist scan!!!!

Still needs to sink in that we are pregnant....next week Friday will be our first scan and i'm so excited.

Please Lord let everything be ok and that our babies are growing strong and healthy.

Its just with God's grace that we have made it this far.

Totally Blessed.

Will update on our scan next week.

Thursday, 5 July 2012

Beta number two!!!

Was so worried about our beta number 2.....been waiting and then there where so problems at the lab and i had to wait extra long but here it is.

13dp3dt = 986


we are so happy it made a perfect doubling and we still think we are having more than one baby....sonar is scheduled for the 20 July 2012. So hoping we can hear the heart beating.



symptoms none really just very tired and have a mild case of the flu.

Hugs.

Tuesday, 3 July 2012

BETA UPDATE AND STILL SO SURREAL!!!

This BFP still needs to sink in....i'm so in shock still and the excitement is so amazing.

We did a beta count yesterday and the results is in............

11dp3dt = 420

I cant believe it....our nurse said its a high number and we think it might be ........Twins.

If its one or two....we are still so blessed and thankful to God for giving us this life he created and trusting us to look after it.

Tomorrow i will be doing another Beta count and then 2 weeks later will be our first sonar. I'm 4 weeks pregnant and so happy and blessed.

Never in a million years would i have thought that i would be a mommy .....all home seemed so far. 

I'm sitting here at work with this stupid smile on my face and not having the ability to concentrate at all on my work. Still just trying to take it all in and enjoying every moment of this feeling.

Will update on my second beta count tomorrow.

Love to all.


Monday, 2 July 2012

AND HERE IS MY UPDATE!!!!!!

SO HERE IS MY UPDATE!!!!

Its been 11 days since my transfer and i must say i feel fine i will in a monent list my syptoms here ......dont know if its deu to the cronione or real symtoms.

1dp3dt-felt fine did not feel anything diffrent.

2dp3dt-bit cramping but no other symptom

3dp3dt-no more cramping but sore boobs 

4dp3dt-sore boobs, here and there cramping and very hungry.

5dp3dt- same as above

6dp3dt-same as above including vivid dreams and frequent urination

7dp3dt-had some AF cramps 

8dp3dt- woke up from the AF crams run to the toilet and did a toilet paper check and all is clear.

9dp3dt-same as above just here and there a twitch in my tummy

10dp3dt-netting nervous and having weird dreams and craving chocolate like crazy.

11dp3dt- test day is here and i have butterflies in my tummy. went for my bloods and waiting for the results

THE RESULTS IS IN..................ITS A BFP

IM PREGNANT ....STILL CANT BELIEVE GOD BLESSED US THIS WAY....THANK YOU GOD FOR BEING BY OUR SIDE AND BELIEVING IN US.

WILL NEVER FORGET THIS DAY.

DREAMS DO COME TRUE WITH THE HELP OF OUR ALL AMAZING GOD


AMEN

Friday, 22 June 2012

WOW WE MADE IT THIS FOR

Lucrin 

Lucrin

Menopur

Infertility Tattoo


Egg retrievel was on Monday ....and it was not so bad as i expected it to be......was sitting and waiting we where two couples waiting for egg retrievel....had to run up and down to sort out some paper work.....i was weeled in at 8am ....i was so scared....they put me on a drip and the kind lady said im gonna sleep nou and that was the last i can remember. I can remember a tug here and there while they where busy with the egg retrievel but was not in a lot of pain.............later on i waked up in a very drowsy state and then fell asleep again for a couple of minutes.......woke up and then decided its time to get dressed......i was not bleeding alot at all and i did expect to bleed.

We retrieved less eggies then what i expected but im still happy with the results......WE RETRIEVED 4 STUNNING EGGIES..i was so relieved.

Now it was the big wait for the fertilization report........phoned the next day and they said 3 fertilized and that embryo transfer wil be on the thursday at half past eleven.


We went on thursday and waited for the transfer ........my bladder was full and i was lying on the bed waiting for our embryo to come. I was so nervouse and excited....FS said our embryos where over achievers normaly embryos are on 6-8 cell on a day 3 transfer.....our embabies was one on 8 cell and the other one on 10 cell....FS was very pleased....hubby was sitting next to me while they transferd the embies and he could see the little bubble go into my womb.....i was so emotional i just started to cry and cry and cry.....


Here is to hoping that my two embabies inside me stick and the one left in the lab will grow big enough to become a snowbaby'


This is going to be the longest two weeks of my life....will be testing on the 2 July.


Im on two days bed rest and FS booked me of for ten days to relax.


Please pray for us as we pray for every couple that struggles to concieve


And a special prayer for you Melody......may you be blessed with a natural prenancy and problem free nine months.