Monday 29 August 2011

TAKING A BREAK FROM MY ENDLESS WORRIED MIND

The whole of August i decided to take a break from ttc.........did not count my days did not went on to any infertility sites or even checked my ovulation microscope........i went completely cold turkey.

And i truly enjoyed the time of from ttc.......to think that we plan our life around this heartache.....i am so tired.

My family notice that i am a different person this month...and trying to explain to them how i feel or how i don't feel this month is very hard. How can i take a break from my dream of having a child of my own when i have always wanted it.

They don't know how exhausting it can be mentally.

i am at a better place now....i am relaxed and ready to start again.

I think every woman get to that stage in there life where they want to breath and not think of our infertility problems....i did not even wanted to talk about invitro or babies......i just wanted to feel like a whole person for one month in my life.


And  i want to stay at his happy place where i am now. I need to be stronger for the emotion roller coaster that awaits us when the invitro starts.

Why must life be so flippen difficult for some and easy for others......is it a kind of punishment for something i did wrong in my life...i don't know know.