Getting over the shock!!!!

So since my last blog post allot has happened.

The good news is i have lost a a few kg so far and i am feeling healthy and energetic.

Not so so long ago we found out that i am getting a new half brother or sister.....witch just devastated me for so many reasons. My dad who is 53 and his fiance who is 49 is having a baby. I must admit that i took the news much better than i thought i would.....with that statement u can see that i did expect something like this to happen for certain  reasons i will not mention here...due to this being a public blog.

I first was crushed to think that i'm not even 30 and struggling so long to have a child of our own and there somebody that have children her childbearing years is over and she just goes and falls pregnant.
Why must life be so unfair.....well i'm trying to focus more on our up and coming cycle then on the hurt i feel now..........i think it will starting hurting more when she starts showing.....witch i think ill must just make my visits less to my fathers house.......to protect my own feelings.

Life is unfair and I need to accept it......

I went to our FS yesterday for a sonar.....ho i hate that magic wand lol.....and we saw i had a 7cm cyst...she put me on provera for 5 days to see if it clears up the cyst and then we gonna start our meds for our first ivf in January.  If the cysts does not clear up we gonna do a ovarian aspiration on Friday and yes it sound sore is i heard it is.......yikes.......but ill do anything.

On the up side i must say i have  family that support me so much that i know this will be a success  and that i will have my own lil baby very soon.

And we going on a nice vacation in December that will make me all relaxed for January.

So this is a Early MERRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR to all.

I am saying a little prayer for every couple that battles infertility.........be strong u are not alone.

all my love

cecilia